Hello people!

I got new haircut. (:
Neater and doesn't look like mushroom anymore like everybody say so. >.<
I think I look way younger now. Haha.
I don't have picture of myself so ya.

Anyway I got my new PSP.
Is in red colour. Haha. Awesome. xD
Went all the way to Clayton to get it because Xiang help me take from Malaysia.
So I go pick it up after my haircut on Saturday.
Hope my mom won't kill me if she know about it. >.<


My PSP

Then came back to city to have dinner with Kok Wei, Patricia and Pamela.
After dinner, they came to my house to lepak and play Wii.
I was supposed to go karaoke tho that night with my work colleagues.
But then Kok Wei and Patricia wanted to stay my place longer.
So I decided not to go and stay at home.
End up, they all stayed until like next afternoon.
And I didn't get to sleep the whole night.
To kill the time, I play my psp and entertain them.
Pamela already sleep tho around midnight.
The two person only decided to sleep around 10 plus in the morning.
I couldnt sleep anymore and then i play my psp until my eye really tired.
Until like 2 something, I finally can sleep at the couch for an hour before go to work.
Thank godness Sunday not that busy.
Can rest abit. >.<
Came back home after work.
Then my housemate's girlfriend told me that Naruto Movie 2 out already.
And my housemate downloading that time.
Finish download, we watch together.
The movie was nice but some part just making no sense. HAHA!
You guys should go watch it. (:
Finish watching at 2am and head to bed.

Today went to class.
Almost late for class tho although I set like 3 alarms.
I did woke up and on my laptop but fall back asleep.
My class at 9am and I woke up around 8.25am.
Quickly get ready and I go class.
The lecturer told us that Thursday kitchen class cancel again.
That mean tomorrow is the last class day of the week.
Going to have long weekend.
Then today I think teacher for last class was MIA.
We all waited 30 minutes and he didn't show up.
So we all decided to go back. (:

Since I got long weekend, I plan to go job hunting on Thursday around Caulfield and Chadstone.
Hope I can get western job.
O ya, going interview at Ric's workplace on Thursday as well.
So hope it work out. (:

Thoughts

• Am I a hindrance to everybody?
• Did I change for past few years?
• If I did, did I change for goods or worse?
• What changes I make during the period I'm alive?

I'm back to update again.
Today been bored the whole morning and Restaurant City was down till like 12 something. >.<
Work was super duper busyy until I reached back home an hour later after the services close around 10.45pm.
Is unusual for Wednesday to be busy, I work non-stop, run around kitchen and etc. Phew~!
Finally day is over. >.<

O ya, if you guys realised, I changed my blogskins.
Hope you guys like it and give some opinion at my chatbox. (:
Spent like 4 hours doing it and finally done.

I went to bed early last night and woke up like around 7 am plus. Sigh.
Tried to sleep early but end up thinking about stuff again.

My thoughts:

I wonder,

• If I doesn't exist in this world, what will happen to others life?
• If I would gone one day, will people take notice of that?
• Will people care about me when I suddenly die without any reasons?
• Will people shed tears for me?
• Do my existence really matter to other people?
• Am I an annoying person?
• Can I make other people happy?
• How important am I to my friends?
• Do my existence matter to people?

Sometimes I realised, some friends do seek me just for help.
Other than that, they wouldn't contact me at all.

That's all for now.

PS: Not emo-ing again. Just my thoughts and feelings. (:

Brrr, just come back from classs.
Wake up early today just to finish my presentation due today.
Went to school library to finish up.
Managed to finish before 3pm class and still alot times to spare. >.<

Is so not good to do last minutes work but can't help it since is a group assignment and everybody doesn't seem free during holidays.
The outcome of the last minutes work and basically i did like 90% of the thing.



Look abit complicated tho. Hope you guys can understand what it is.
The topic is Table booking system in a restaurant.


O, I'm going to miss this drink as I been told this drink can't be imported to Melbourne anymore. >.<

Well, I been thinking quite a while and is hard to find a western restaurant work in tho.
So I looking for another job, no matter what kind of job as long is legal of course.
So anybody got a job available, please tell me. >.<
I had asked Kar Yee about her workplace, hope there a vacant there tho. (:

I planned to get 3 jobs although is going to be so hectic and tiring for me but I don't mind as I'm paying for my own living expenses here including rent.
I also decided to pay my own fees when I get like a decent job while studying.
I just don't want to burden my parents anymore as I got another 3 more younger siblings that need my parents care and I wish I could help their burden.

Sometimes I wonder am I a burden for my family, that's why I been send here alone and far away from them.
I just can't stop thinking about it sometimes.
I been giving a lot of troubles last time back then until they don't really trust me.
Sometimes I do think they hate me a lot by scolding me every moment instead of my elder brother.
Now I had came to my thinking and realised they scold for my own goods.
They are important people in my life and I can't afford to lose them.

And I came to realise this long ago and now I want to say it out in this blog.
I became my parent's hope and they counting on me in the future.
Not only my parents, all the relatives also including my grandma.
She supporting me to open a restaurant next time and I really miss all of them. :(
I doesn't want to disappoint them again as I already had disappoint them a lot of times before.
Is hard to walk down this road alone though.
I sometimes wonder why must be me to carry this hope but not my brother.
There a lot of pressures to handle and I'm trying my best to cope with it.
Already few times, I feel lonely and wanting to break down tho.
In fact, I already breakdown once last year and is really hard to control the feelings.
Sometimes I just need someone to be at my side.
It's seem hard but times will decide everything.
Sometimes I feel too tired and planned to give up.
But somehow there a tiny voice in my mind keep pushing me to go on.
I'm trying my very best now to achieve my parents standard.
Life have a lot of obstacles and I been thru a lot.
I been thru a year in Melbourne alone altho there's some problem occured.
I'm glad that I still got friends that I can count on either in Malaysia or Melbourne.
So I'm going to keep fighting all this obstacles and be a successful person.
I will take all the past as lessons to me and my guidance, so I won't be making the same mistakes anymore.

PS: not emo-ing. Just want to say what I been thinking all these while. Finally relieved after saying all these. (: