Brrr, just come back from classs.
Wake up early today just to finish my presentation due today.
Went to school library to finish up.
Managed to finish before 3pm class and still alot times to spare. >.<

Is so not good to do last minutes work but can't help it since is a group assignment and everybody doesn't seem free during holidays.
The outcome of the last minutes work and basically i did like 90% of the thing.



Look abit complicated tho. Hope you guys can understand what it is.
The topic is Table booking system in a restaurant.


O, I'm going to miss this drink as I been told this drink can't be imported to Melbourne anymore. >.<

Well, I been thinking quite a while and is hard to find a western restaurant work in tho.
So I looking for another job, no matter what kind of job as long is legal of course.
So anybody got a job available, please tell me. >.<
I had asked Kar Yee about her workplace, hope there a vacant there tho. (:

I planned to get 3 jobs although is going to be so hectic and tiring for me but I don't mind as I'm paying for my own living expenses here including rent.
I also decided to pay my own fees when I get like a decent job while studying.
I just don't want to burden my parents anymore as I got another 3 more younger siblings that need my parents care and I wish I could help their burden.

Sometimes I wonder am I a burden for my family, that's why I been send here alone and far away from them.
I just can't stop thinking about it sometimes.
I been giving a lot of troubles last time back then until they don't really trust me.
Sometimes I do think they hate me a lot by scolding me every moment instead of my elder brother.
Now I had came to my thinking and realised they scold for my own goods.
They are important people in my life and I can't afford to lose them.

And I came to realise this long ago and now I want to say it out in this blog.
I became my parent's hope and they counting on me in the future.
Not only my parents, all the relatives also including my grandma.
She supporting me to open a restaurant next time and I really miss all of them. :(
I doesn't want to disappoint them again as I already had disappoint them a lot of times before.
Is hard to walk down this road alone though.
I sometimes wonder why must be me to carry this hope but not my brother.
There a lot of pressures to handle and I'm trying my best to cope with it.
Already few times, I feel lonely and wanting to break down tho.
In fact, I already breakdown once last year and is really hard to control the feelings.
Sometimes I just need someone to be at my side.
It's seem hard but times will decide everything.
Sometimes I feel too tired and planned to give up.
But somehow there a tiny voice in my mind keep pushing me to go on.
I'm trying my very best now to achieve my parents standard.
Life have a lot of obstacles and I been thru a lot.
I been thru a year in Melbourne alone altho there's some problem occured.
I'm glad that I still got friends that I can count on either in Malaysia or Melbourne.
So I'm going to keep fighting all this obstacles and be a successful person.
I will take all the past as lessons to me and my guidance, so I won't be making the same mistakes anymore.

PS: not emo-ing. Just want to say what I been thinking all these while. Finally relieved after saying all these. (: