I don't know what the heck is wrong with me these few days. I'm lost in darkness. I'm thinking of suicide again and i really wan to do it badly. Wonder how world like if I doesn't exist. Could it better or still the same? I think it will MUCH better without me. I just couldn't believe I done. I lost 2 best friends of mine and it will never recovered. I unable to forgive myself anymore. My opinion, I doesn't deserve a second chance. After 17 years of living, I found a jerk inside me or i could say a BASTARD!
Life is not a longer useful for me. I had lose my faith in living and no strength to keep living. It just like dropping in a deep dark hole and couldn't climb out and there no one willing to help me. I just waiting for death to bring me to hell I suppose. I don't deserve a place in neither heaven or earth.

I officially declared myself as

SAMPAH MASYARAKAT!

So long n farewell!