About Little Chef's Life
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Date: Thursday, July 26 Time: 10:56 AM Are you all f*cking happy to see me like this isn’t it? I already said it so many times; I didn’t do it on purpose. Well, you all must be thinking why can’t I control myself that time. I myself can’t think of why. Damn it! You wan to listen to this sentence “ I do it on purpose and I wan to ruin our friendship.” don’t u all? Anyway I had done it and is my fault, I can’t push this responsibility away. Happy aren’t you all see me like this now. When I get better, there always someone would come and ruined it. Never mind, I already predict all these go to happen. I guess there someone out there don’t want me to happy and want me to regret for what I’m doing. I already REGRET it but there no cure for all these stuff. There nothing I can do for recovering our friendship. I realized one by one of my friends are abandoning our friendship. Well I can’t blame you all for thinking like that. If was me, I also will do the same. Nothing could be the same anymore. World change, so do human. God is jus being fair to me. Everything I do, sure have punishment and rewards. I really wondering what will world become if I’m not around. Probably I don’t deserve to be in this world at all. I’m lack of confidence to continue surviving. That’s all and farewell! |
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Date: Sunday, July 8 Time: 1:14 AM I don't know what the heck is wrong with me these few days. I'm lost in darkness. I'm thinking of suicide again and i really wan to do it badly. Wonder how world like if I doesn't exist. Could it better or still the same? I think it will MUCH better without me. I just couldn't believe I done. I lost 2 best friends of mine and it will never recovered. I unable to forgive myself anymore. My opinion, I doesn't deserve a second chance. After 17 years of living, I found a jerk inside me or i could say a BASTARD! Life is not a longer useful for me. I had lose my faith in living and no strength to keep living. It just like dropping in a deep dark hole and couldn't climb out and there no one willing to help me. I just waiting for death to bring me to hell I suppose. I don't deserve a place in neither heaven or earth. I officially declared myself as SAMPAH MASYARAKAT! So long n farewell! |
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Date: Sunday, July 1 Time: 9:58 PM Weekend is always boring days if didnt go out. Stay at home only do 2 things beside eat are sleep n online. Haih! BORED!!! Next whole week im not working. Got IELTS workshop to attend. Z.z Have to travel all the way to Subang Jaya. Crap. Nvm la for sake of my future. Aiya! There nothing for me to update since nothing happen really happen. Later i upload sum pic ba. Hehe. ps: miss her so much! Labels: life |
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Date: Sunday, March 4 Time: 11:34 PM Heyhey. Haih. These few days are damn freaking boring. During these days, I had been thinking too much. Don’t know what I think also. Making me headache only. Now currently waiting for results n college to start. I wish I start college in January. Now regretted although I got work to earn sum allowance. But now left less then 1month to college to begin n I stuck at home wondering around. Hmm. SPM results coming out n I don’t know whether im ready anot. Haha. I guess that’s all for now. Will post more next day I hope. ^^ Labels: life, SPM Results |