About Little Chef's Life
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Date: Thursday, June 28 Time: 11:58 AM Sometimes I wondering should I deserve to be in this world. There like nothing for me in this century. Too many things happening to me and I don’t know how long I can hang on now. Sometimes I feel like giving up but there always a voice in my mind keep saying ‘Stand up, dun easily give up. There a lot things await for you in the future.’ That how I can survived until now. Got once in standard 6, I couldn’t bear the stress I had. So I hanged myself in the school. I took a long raffia string I found in the classroom. Then I go to back door and tie the string. I hung myself but god let me survived and apparently I didn’t manage to suicide. No one know about it except my friends who close to me. There a red mark on my neck and my parents didn’t even notice. Parents had been like pushing me into studies all the time like I’m the only hope for them. I always get scolding for no reason but not my big bro. Sometimes I don’t know why they want to do like that but deep inside my heart, I know they loved me, so do I. I had many things happen to me and on that moment, I though I’m dying. Early of 1995, I got hole in the heart and I managed to survive from the operation. My mom took care of me all the times during the time I lived in hospital. Now my heart is cured and I wish the problem won’t occurred anymore. My parents have to spend a lot of money on me that time. The operation left me a long scar on my chest and I always remembered the moment I had during that years. From that time onwards, my growing had been limited and stopped for a while due to my heart pumping very slow. So last time, I’m like a dwarf and been teased all the time. Now I almost back to normal size and I happy with whom I am. Another thing happen is near July 2004; I fell down and broke my left hand. I was being so careless and tripped on fan wire. Two bones of left arms had broken and need to straighten back. The doctor said need to do operation to put the metal so can support my bone from being moved but I didn’t wan to leave 2 scar on my hand because they have do operation and take the metal out again. So my aunt knows a Chinese traditional doctor who are specialist in bone and intro he to my parents. Then I followed them back to hometown to cure my hand. We had to travel back and flow many times. During the moment, I been suffering from using one hand and my left hand couldn’t move at all. I was pretty upset because I missed a lot of activities such in camp, campfire, and outing and much more. There nothing I can do if I wan my hand to cure. So in the end, my hand fully cured and can move back as normal but must be extra careful and cannot carry heavy stuff. Being unlucky for my teenage life but the god had decided my life and I had to move on. Now my left hand is apparently smaller then my right hand. Later on, mid of last year, I got rashes on my right shoulder. At first, I thought it was a bite from mosquito. Later on, it gets worse and worse, so I told my parents about it and they bring me to another traditional doctor. The doctor said is a rare rash and got name for it, which are half-head snakes rashes. He said these rashes could take someone’s life if it spread around the body. So I took treatment from him and the rashes slowly cured and the rashes left a small scar at my shoulder. For this treatment, my parents spend a lot too being travel around. My parents had done so many things and spend a lot too just for me. After these entire incidents, I really appreciated my parents although I hated them before. Like Chinese statement said, ‘ Hatred in family won’t last long.’ I really hope there will be nothing happen to me again because I had suffered from mentally n physically problems. I’m used to be a healthy guy who can run around and wont get sick easily but after all these problems occurred, I realized I aren’t that tough. For the sack of my parents and myself, I will maintain my lifestyle and be happy always like last time I used to be. ‘Laughter is always the best medicine for everyone.’  Labels: random
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dont la so negative~ at least the last paragraph u happy again then good la...
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